When I wrote Dempsey’s Grill I was surprised with the emotional rollercoaster I experienced. I never thought I would actually feel what the characters felt.
I just thought I’d write the thing and move on.
I probably need help
Whenever I wrote a happy chapter I was happy all day. The same goes for a sad or nervous one. Let’s give a moment of thanks that I didn’t write about a trigger happy assassin.
Yes, to much.
The biggest challenge I had was keeping my emotions in check. For example: If I spent the day writing an angry scene I had to remind myself not to snap at the kids the moment they walked through the door.
Anger is a good thing
For the longest time I had to convince myself this wasn’t normal. How could something I created affect my emotions so much? There’s probably a word for it. Whatever it is it’s probably not a good one.
No matter how hard I fought, the emotions continued. Finally I realized, and accepted that it was all part of what I do.
Looking back I realize now it was a good thing. It meant I was doing something right. There was a connection and connections are a good thing if we’re trying to entertain.
Here I go again
So now I’m back at it again and to no surprise the emotional rollercoaster is all fired up and ready to go. Some days I’m bummed out while other days I’m on top of the world.
Is it exhausting? You be it is, but if my goal is to entertain someone then I have to see this as a good sign.
Most of all it is the only way I know how.
So here I go. Ready to tackle another chapter. If I appear a little grumpy to those of you I contact, please forgive me and be patient. A happy Bryan is sure to be found in a coming chapter.
The joys of writing… in all its wonderful forms…
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Isn’t that the truth.
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You’ve got to feel it to be able to put it on the page.
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Yes you do, my friend.
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Thank you, Bryan. It’s all about feelings, surely…I had to kill off a most likeable guy in my present book and it really upset me. Also harrowing was an earlier ‘war situation’ scene where the Nazis were happily killing without pity. The second half of the book – relief – will concentrate on the more artistic and humouress side of life. Cheers.
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Killing off a character is hard. Sometimes down right emotional. We hold these people close to our hearts, don’t we.
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I hear you on this and I think a lot of us struggle with the same thing. I’ve also had a different issue – not keeping the mood. I had some trouble in writing a dark mystery because I kept injecting humor. Lol. Good luck
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At the same time, go with it. That’s you. Inject your style no matter how dark it is. That is what makes your work unique.
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Fair enough. I never thought of it like that. 🙂
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I can really identify with your struggle! I always believed if I felt it, my reader would feel it too, so I take the emotional ups and downs as a sign I’m doing something right. One minute I’m cackling with glee as I put the bad guy in his place, and the next minute I’m all choked up when my MC is struggling. Thankfully, I don’t end up carrying the emotions around afterwards – they tend to stay on the page and I can walk away relatively unscathed.
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The key to what you said is that you can walk away. That is the most important thing. We have to let go and, as you said, leave it on the page.
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It’s a gift and a curse, we have to feel it to portray it. To be fair, writing is mostly a gift. 🤓
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It is but man oh man, it can be exhausting. 🙂
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I get it–imagine how I felt when I had to kill off one of my favourite characters!
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That is gut wrenching. it’s such an emotional moment.
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Okay, I don’t think I could handle doing that very well! That’s probably why I don’t write much in the way of fiction! I’m so sorry it’s gotta be that much of an emotional rollercoaster! Love your blog though! 🙂 Mona
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Hi Mona!!!! Thank you for stopping by. Yes, sometimes I wonder what exactly I’m doing. 🙂
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I think your writing does impact on your moods and emotions, Bryan. When you write, you go down a hole and become a part of your characters and their world.
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We sure do but I guess that means we’re doing something right, doesn’t it.
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Yes, if you don’t get under the skin of your characters, you won’t write as well.
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His makes perfect sense to me. I’ll look for that grumpy side to surface.
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Sometimes grumpiness is good. 🙂
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And then you add to the mix more characters and all their feelings hit you at once until you have to walk away lol.
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It’s exhausting, my good man. 🙂
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